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All right guys, I'm back! That end-of-January thing I kept mentioning finally came to a close on 20 February, and I've just been adjusting to changes and eagerly whipping up some pictures. And by changes, I mean a lot has been going on, and now I'm entering something of a new start in my life.

And now for some updates for whoever happens to care.


Story Publishing
For the first time, I'm actually seriously considering the possibility of publishing my story, and so I'm going to start pursuing that. It has taken me a very long time to come to this decision, but I've received so much support and encouragement from a variety of people, both online and in person, and it's really about time that I stop taking it for granted. I've always been under the impression that publishing my story cannot be done and is therefore not an option, but I've suddenly come to realise that it isn't impossible and there are people out there who want it published. I don't want to fill myself with any false hope, but I do want to treat this as a legitimate goal now.

That said, I intend to work on typing it out (never have yet) and drawing my characters more. Not that I exactly intend to have any of my art in my books (it's far from professional quality), but I haven't been doing the OC-related art I've been wanting to do, and this seems like an appropriate time to work on that. I don't even HAVE drawings of a lot of my characters, and my gallery fails to feature even just the main ones. So yes-- hopefully that'll change.

As some of you are aware from previous journals, I also still intend to work on that mini graphic novel that depicts some of the first events in my story. That'll take a long while to completely finish, but I'm really looking forwards to presenting it, and hopefully sooner than later. I'm thinking I'll probably end up posting it in chunks instead of the whole thing all at once, but we'll see.

If anyone has any insight or suggestions on any of this, feel free to share it!


Art Status/Owed Art
Commissions are open again, and I'm also open to trades now, but I won't guarantee accepting the offer (depends on how busy I am and my personal interest). What about my old trades/etc? Well-- ehhn. xD;; I haven't forgotten who I owe art to; the issue is that any old trades and the like that I still need to finish were initiated when I still had an emotional/philosophical wall that prevented me from freely working on art, and so while laziness may have had a part in it, it really was very hard for me to work around that mental barrier. It was especially hard to draw for others because I was so afraid of disappointing people that I just couldn't will myself to put something together in a lot of cases.

So what's stopping me now? Argh. .n. The desire to move on, mostly. Ever since I managed to overcome that problem, I've been really timely with my art, whether it's commissions, trades, or gifts, but that's the thing: I've made and continue to make new arrangements since then, and I want to keep on top of those-- and I'm enjoying it! But I don't want to turn around and go back to those long-owed things surrounded by bad memories. I did start on a few of the pictures that I owed people some time ago, but even those ones probably won't be finished. I dunno, they might, but it's not looking like it. I know it's my responsibility, but the more time that passes, the more I want to move on completely. I can understand if anyone is really disappointed about this, but you can feel free to start new trades with me or commission me, and I won't leave you waiting.

I truly am sorry.


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Uhhr I guess that's it. I feel like there's something more I wanted to say, but I can't remember. *shrug* I may or may not end up editing this later.

OWAIT.

I guess I'd just like to mention that I've been trying very, very hard to overcome my miserable outlook on life, and I've been making a lot of progress. I've learned a significant amount, but I have a hard time really making it a part of my natural perspective versus an intellectual acknowledgement. After spending most of my time still being miserable (but gradually improving in overall emotional state), I believe I may reach the point of permanently changing my perspective for the better quite soon. Or at least I'm eager to try try try.

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Ja.


Also I seriously love Avarde you guiz. When it comes to actually being about art, that place is so much better than dA. Too much crap here, honestly. Great, great art community, and I'm so glad I joined. Thenks Ryxeling. :u

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